How much time is there to decide?

As I begin to drift off to sleep after a wonderful night full of family, friends, and laughter, I start to wonder what is going to come of my life. Will I get into grad school? What will be the outcome of my undergraduate career?


I wish things were black and white with no gray area. This days events can only be summed up by one song right now...

My soul's been like sand. I'm so tired. It's like my spirit expired, but I will walk until my blood runs out until my heart is burned
I am not alone, but I run away from the promises and when everything chooses to stay up and down I do look away climbing most every day.

Patience on top of a mountain pumping blood through my veins. I am not alone I ache for the truth but can't find my way can't live no more. Just before the light goes away comes laughter and smiles that form a moment of clarity. This clarity is exchanged for another day. My heart continues to say that this decision is risky. I will walk until my blood runs out until my heart is burned. I am not alone, but at the same time I am. Here I go, just me, I gotta let go, gotta believe. I have to rip through the negativity and find a place that I can be me. So I agree inevitably that I cannot stay here eternally. The day has come where I need to take things into my own hands and stop letting people condition me to what they think I should do. I am going to follow my passion and I will succeed.

Some say you cannot run, but you can hide. I am on the other side of the road right now and I am running
and hiding from everything that results in negative feelings.